fuse 2 years 9 months ago wrote:

So the past few nights I've been dreaming of girls that exist/ed in my life.

Two nights ago, I dreamt I kissed my current g/f, and it felt amazing. I couldn't describe it. We were in the middle of public and neither of us cared at all. Emotions pouring out of both of us...

Last night, I dreamt that this girl I knew from elementary-highschool (we knew each other but weren't friends), she whispered in my ear, I always loved you... and wanted me to be with her. It made me feel special, but I realized I was already in love w/ the 1st girl I mentioned.

So... what does this all mean? I can't make sense of all of it. But what I think is, I need what I need, which is someone to love at this point in my life. My current g/f either is afraid or doesn't get the appropriate social role that needs to be played when a guy shows lots of sensitivity towards her; in the forms of gifts, flowers, and even telling her how important she is to me. I think it's gentlemanly to let the girl give some sign that it's okay for the guy to make the move, but then again I haven't dated in the real sense of the word.

Maybe I had the wrong idea before of what love meant, and what love was meant for. But knowing what I know now, it seems all the more precious to me, especially who I consider myself involved with right now.

I wonder what the appropriate path is to take... I don't want to overwhelm her, she's already working 6 days a week... It would make my conscience feel more pure for me to tell her I love her... But if she's not there on the emotional level, or she doesn't know how to respond (which is common w/ her)... I don't know if I could spend my life w/ someone like that. I need someone to be there emotionally, and likewise for me to her. Without it, there is not intimacy.

IdyotAko 2 years 9 months ago wrote:

Love is one of those things that is hard to describe and even harder to actually feel. Some folks would say that their in love with someone but it's nothing more than infatuation. The one thing about love that is a constant is mutual sacrifice. You know that you're in love when you can sacrifice a lot of important things to make sure that the person is happy regardless if that person will be with you forever or not.

As far as your dream is concerned... it's farily normal for people to dream of other folks that they know (sexual or not). Did you find that one girl attractive? Sometimes, your sunconcious will kick in during your sleep and give you all these jacked up dreams and stuff. IF you really had no feelings for that person, then it's something you shouldn't worry about.

Try not to suffocate your girlfriend, even though you don't mean it. It's ok to show affection once in a while, but don't do it too often. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, as they say. Like you said, she works 6 days a week... she would like to rest on her day off sometimes. If anything, talk to her. You don't have to tell her how important she is to you and stuff, but just be there in case she needs some affection.

fuse 2 years 9 months ago wrote:

Well I talked with my Brother last night about it in great detail, he's always a good one to talk to.

Last night I also dreamed we had kissed again, this time alone in an elevator. It lasted for 10-15 seconds. But then she told me she had a boyfriend... and that she couldn't. This guy named Kelly? ... eak broke my heart . I told her that I wanted her, even if there was a slim chance of it.

Bleh anyways I guess you could say I'm egging myself on to make a move, but right now I'm waiting for a return call since our last date. There is so much more to it than meets the eye, so many possibilities.

I find this all very exciting. Figuring how girls tick, especially the shy kind. But I guess that's all there is for me to say, I guess I'll close this and remain more private since my Bro is someone I consider a good person to talk to about this.